Just a week away from Christmas, am happy, excited and tired. Been wraping presents and presents day in and out. The house is almost decorated, except for some mobiles which needs Mike's expertise.
We've got a landscape designer to come in last week to have a look at our little garden and give us their proposal. That will be our Christmas present to each other for Christmas. Actually for Jr and Misha, our little doggie who will be turning 1 very soon.
In the midst of it all, i try to recall all the blessings the Lord has showered upon us during the year. The Lord is good, his love is everlasting and his mercy never ceasing. Clearly he has been and is with us all the days, thru the good and the bad. The most recent being Mike's new assignment in Berjaya as Special Assistant to Tan Sri Vincent Tan. Just 2 weeks back, Mike was saying how he missed the TV industry. And I told he, in the His tine and if its right for him, he will be back, infact he never really left it due to his network. How wonderful our Lord to hear the
desires of our hearts.
Inlaws decided to stay and spend Christmas with us. Initially, i've been hesitant, just wanting it to be cozy with my own circle of friends and just Mike and Jr. But I guess its the Lord's will and I am glad to say, he's opened my heart to it. So the usual midnite supper after mass. Jr has declared he wont be sleeping at all! Then Christmas dinner at godson's house and on boxing day, it'll just be 3 of us to Shang for 2 nights. Then maybe a day trip to Melaka so we can have Jr visit AFamosa with the Dewitts. Then Kevyn, our long lost friend comes and spends new year with us.
A friend from church has brought me to see a nutristionist, something i've wanted all along. The
first thing he ordered was a complete blood test which costed me almost RM1800! Its really intensive in that it reads everything from hormones to magnesium level and that sort. Again, me results are not good at all. I've started taking Steve's pills since Tuesday. There are like over 20 bottles and each time there are like over 40 pills i have to swallow. And that's for 3x a day! I've gagged, thrown up and survived. I have complete faith that they will help me. The first step is to get the body system back to order as mine has been totally wrecked by chemo and the tumors. See, the body has been designed to heal itself and once all in the system are in order, healing can take place. Its the food, the water, the air, the lifestyle that controls how the body will work.
So, we 've invested in a heavy duty and wonderful vacuum/ cleaning pot called the Rainbow to take care of dust in the house. Next will be the water machine that gives out water with a oxygen level 10x more than ordinary water. All these will also benefit everyone in the family, so they stay healthier. Especially for jr. Must really watch his diet as he will take on my genes!
Everyone's asks "how are you Jennifer?" I used to say, "i'm good". Now, i say " I'm coping". I am really. Today wasnt such a good day. I can feel the bones in my legs twisting and doing funny things. it hurts and sometimes its difficut to walk. I'm just worried that it will give way......
Jr has asked "Why did God allow mummy to have cancer?" I cried when i heard that. He asked me if he could get me a cheaper present because he cant afford Transfer Factor, a supplement which i take. He secretly told me, he intends to write a longer story and add it on to his Jr short stories and sell them at RM25 to raise funds for my treatment. I cried for days after that. God, pls dont deprive this angel of a mother. I've promised him to bea round for his graduation as a doctor and for his lst operation. Jr has this dream where he will open his own hospital in future. Mu,,y will be in charge of $$$$, Daddy will be Marketing & Promotions Head, Grand Pa will be the Building Inspector and Ah Ma will be the receptionist and administrator. There will be a family room for all of us to rest when tired. And one day in a week, he will see poor patirents for free. He's already talking how he's gonna live when he gets to Harvard.
This school holidays has been good for us. I noticed a big jump in Jr's character and behaviour. Its like all of a sudden he has matured so much and he has opened himself a lot more. Of course, there are still tantrums and all, but overall, i must say he has really grown up. Praise God for that. I told him all i want from him for Christmas is that he will be happy. For as long as he's happy, so will we be. Amen.